Hai! XD da lame tak on blog nie xD aku nie tetibe on, saje je nak cerita sikit. Tak tau nak cite kat sape. Awek pun takde. Kahkahkah! XD Sebenarnya aku betul betul ingat hari nie hari jumaat. Sebab hari jumaat aku ada ujian lesen. So malam tadi aku set jam 7.50 am. Aku bangun, then aku mandi. Then, siap siap pakai smart smart sebab nak ambik gambar nanti xD haha. Aku siap kan stokin, kasut lepas tu aku duduk kat tangga rumah aku. Duduk tunggu kawan. Duduk punya duduk dah 8.50 am. Aku cakap dalam hati, mane la kawan aku nie -.- aku buat la call me back kat dia ( maklum la da lame tak topup sebab takde awek xD) then, dia call aku. Dia cakap, aaa, ade ape? Aku cakap, kau kat mane? Dia, kat rumah. Aku, pegi tak buat lesen? Dia, arh?! Alamak! ... Hari jumaat la. Aku, hari nie hari ape? Dia, khamis la sambil tergelak. Aku, ooo. Ok la ( cover malu ) off fon. Pastu aku try tengok kalender kat fon aku. Terkejut aku tengok. -.- Haha! Sejak bila aku ade amnesia nie -.- first time dalam hidup aku. Haha xD itu je aku nak share. Selamat malam =)
(a girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on a
motorcycle)
Girl: Slow down. I'm scared.
Boy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, it's too scary!
Boy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Boy: Now give me a big hug.
(Girl hugs him)
Boy: Can you take my helmet off and put it on? It's
bugging me.
In the newspaper the next day:
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of
break failure. Two people were on the motorcycle,
but only one survived.
The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy
realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to
let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved
him, felt her hug one last time, then had her wear
his helmet so she would live even though it meant
he would die.
TRUE LOVE IS PAINING & KILLING
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There was once this guy who is very much in love
with his girl. This romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces
of paper cranes as a gift to his girl. Although, at that
time he was just a small fry in his company, his
future didn’t seem too bright, they were very happy
together. Until one day, his girl told him she was
going to Paris and will nevercome back. She also
told him that she cannot visualize any future for the
both of them, so they went their own ways there
and then…
Heartbroken, the guy agreed. But when he regained
his confidence, he worked hard day and night,
slogging his body and mind just to make
something out of himself. Finally with all the
hardwork and the help of friends, this guy had set
up his own company … You never fail until you
stop trying. One rainy day, while this guy was
driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an
umbrella in the rain walk ing to some destination.
Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It
didn’t take him long to realize they were his girl’s
parents. With a heart in getting back at them, he
drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to
spot him in his luxury sedan. He wanted them to
know that he wasn’t the same any more; he had his
own company, car, condo, etc. He made it! What
he saw next confused him, the couple was walking
towards a cemetery, and so he got out ofhis car
and followed…and he saw his girl, a photograph of
her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her
tombstone and he saw his paper cranes right beside
her… Her parents saw him. He asked them why this
had happened. They explained, she did not leave for
France at all. She was ill with cancer. She had
believed that he will make it someday, but she did
not want to be his obstacle… therefore she had
chosen to leave him.Just because someone doesn’t
love you the way you wa nt them to, doesn’t mean
they don’t love you with all they have. She had
wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside
her, because, if the day comes when fate brings
him to her again…he can take some of those back
with him… Once you have loved, you will always
love. For what’s in your mind may escape but
what’s in your heart will remain forever. The guy
just wept…The worst way to miss someone is to be
sitting right beside her knowing you can’t have her,
see her or be with her ever again.
I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His
name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend
until last year, when we went to a trip from a
club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before
that
trip was over, I took a step and confessed my
love for him. And soon, we became a pair of
lovers, but we loved each other in different
ways. I always concentrated on him only, but
by
his side, there were so many other girls. To
me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I
was just another girl…
“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I
asked.
“I can’t”
“Why? You need to study at home?” I felt
disappointment grabbing me.
“No… I am going to meet a friend…
He was always like that. He met girls in front of
me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a
girlfriend. The word ‘love’ only came out from
my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never
heard him say ‘I love you’ before. To us, there
weren’t any anniversaries at all. He didn’t say
anything from the first day and it continued till
100 days…200days… Everyday, before we say
goodbye, he would just hand me a doll,
everyday, without fail. I don’t know why…
Then one day…
Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go
home.
That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and
handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like
he was running away. The dolls I received from
him everyday, filled my room, one by one.
There were many…
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.
When I got up in the morning, I pictured a
party with him, and stranded myself in my
room, waiting for his call. But… lunch passed,
dinner passed… and soon the sky was dark…
he still didn’t call. It was already tiring to look at
the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the
morning, he suddenly called me and woke me
from my sleep. He told me to come out of the
house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin…
Jin: Here…take this…
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am
giving it to you now. I’m going home now,
bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my
birthday. He turned around and walked away
like nothing had happen. Then I shouted…
“Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to
him. But he just said simple cold words and
left.
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so
easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find
someone else.”
That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs
felt numb… and I collapsed to the ground. He
didn’t want to say it easily… How could he…. I
felt that… Maybe he is not the right guy for me…
After that day, I stranded myself at home
crying, just crying. He didn’t call me, although I
was waiting. He just continued handing me a
little doll every morning outside my house.
That’s how those dolls piled up in my room…
everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went
to school. But what made the pain resurface
was that… I saw him on a street… with another
girl… He had a smile on his face, one that he
never showed me…as he touched the doll… I
ran straight back home and looked at the dolls
in my room, and tears fell… Why did he gave
these to me… Those dolls are probably picked
out by some other girls…In a fit of anger, I
threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the
phone rang. It was him. He told me to come
out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to
calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.
I kept reminding myself that I am going to
forget him, that… it’s going to end. Then he
came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really
came?
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing
had happen and joking around. Soon, he held
out the doll as usual…
Me: I don’t need it. Jin: What….why…
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it
on the road.
Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it
anymore!! I don’t want to see a person like you
again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me.
But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
“I’m sorry” He apologized in a tiny voice. He
then walked over to the road to pick up the
doll…
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the
doll?! Just throw it away!!!
But he ignored me and just went to pick the
doll. Then…
Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading
towards him.
“Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted… But he
didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked
up the doll.
“Jin, move!” HONK~!! “Boom!” That sound, so
terrifying.
That’s how he went away from me. That’s how
he went away without even opening his eyes to
say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday
with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him…
And after spending two months like a crazy
person… I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the
day we started going out. I remembered the
days I spent with him and started to count the
days… when we were in love…
“One…two… three…” That was how… I started
to count the dolls…
“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred
and eighty five…” It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my
arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…
“I love you~, I love you~” I dropped the dolls,
shocked
“I….lo..ve…you??” I picked up the dolls and
pressed its stomach.
“I love you~ I love you~” It can’t be! I pressed
all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on the side.
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
Those words came out non-stop. I…love you…
Why didn’t I realize that….That his heart was
always by my side, protecting me. Why didn’t I
realize that he love me this much… I took out
the doll under the bed and pressed it’s stomach,
that was the last doll, the one that fell on the
road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice
came out, the on that I was missing so much.
“Jo…Do you know what today is? We’ve been
loving each other for 486 days. Do you know
what 486 is? I couldn’t say I love you…. Um…
since I was too shy… If you forgive me and
take this doll, I will say that I love you…
everyday… till I die… Jo… I love you…”
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why?
I asked god, why do I only know about all this
now? He can’t be by my side, but he loved me
until his last minute…
For that… and for that reason… to me… it
became courage… to live a beautiful life ..
I and Jin are best frends..we do anything that best frends do...One day, i realised that i love him...so i decided to confessed my feeling to him one nite where we camp with other frens. he said yes, he would be my boyfren.. So we went on like other gurlfrenboyfren's life does. Watch movie, walk in park, eat together, go to beach....but life's not fun as when we are still best fren....he also doesnt talk much, or act like we are best fren, close and share everything...for me, he is not a suitable or loving boyfren...but i kept quitely this on my mind... But since the day he bcome my boyfren, he every single day would give me a small teddy bear...At first i thought it was lovely, but till now, i wonder why he would gav me this... One day, i was walking alone at a park. Then i saw Jin talking to another gurl. I walk toward him and i overheard him saying "i love u'' to the gurl. I was really angry and i run home coz Jin never told me he love me all the time we been boyfren and gurlfren. Then, at midnite that day, he come to my house and i open the door. He just passed me the teddy bear that he used to give me everyday and said sorry coz i didn't giv u this today. i was really angry and i shouted at him, "Why u alwiz giv me this crap? All i wan to hear form u is, I love you, that's it, izit too hard???" Jin kept quiet. He took my hand and place the teddy bear on my palm and left away..i throw the teddy bear into my cupboard. The next day, Jin asked me out. We meet at bus stop near my house..i walk there and then he just gav me a big teddy bear,my anger was still in high position,and i throw the teddy to the middle of the road. He keep quiet and then he go to the middle of the road and pick the teddy up. He dint realise a truck was coming towards him. I shouted at him not to pick it up and he was about look at me,and... *Bang*. "JIN!!!!!!" I shouted... the nex minute he was lying on the road, covered with blood. He was sent to the hospital but it's too late...i lost him...forever.... after attended his funeral, i went back home and i hug all the teddy bear he gav me since the day we bcome gfbf...i counted the teddy bear one by one..1...2....3...101...230....300..364...and the last teddy bear he gave covered with his blood was the 365th...it had been a year we bcome bfgf...i squeeze the teddy bear with the tears flow....suddenly... *I love you~* *I love you~* i was shocked..i looked at the teddys...and i take one of it, and try to press on his tummy.. *I love you~* i tried each and every teddy bear he gav me... *I love you~* *I love you~* *I love you~* *I love you~* *I love you~* *I love you~*...................... and the biggest and the last teddy bear Jin gav me, I squeeze his big tummy... *felicia, today is our very first anniversary being after a year.....i alwayz love you, yesterday, today, and forever........I love you....* i dropped the teddy bear........ i never realised that Jin had actually told me those words..every single day....till today... i slowly picked the teddy and i whispered to the teddy's ear.. "i love you too, Jin..and i alwayz did........"
Everything changed after ur camp -.- its too many changed. Ur smile, ur eyes, cara layan, everything. My mind can't control it -.-

I don't know what to do. I'm just stuck at the moment. Blurr one. I don't know how to start like we first time in love before. I don't know. And from where i should start? Lots of thinking. I hope everything will change like before. Hopefully.

And truly, i really really really miss U. Alot. Sampai mimpi lagi. #NP YA SUDAHLAH, janganlah kau bersedih, coz everythings can be okay :-) hopefully.
Holla! xD
Setelah sekian lame aku tak update blog nie kan.. Dah bersawang dah. ;-)
Okey.
Ketika hati benar - benar peduli tentang seseorang
itu,
kesalahan dia tidak pernah mengubah perasaan kita
walaupun masa tu kita tengah marah,
tapi hati kita masih tetap cinta dan sayang pada
dia.
Jaga baik - baik pasangan anda.
Smile =)
Heeelloooo!!
Hurm.. Sekadar cakap sorry tidak membawa maksud ape ape. I'm so stupid! :-( I'm sorry. Stuck at the moment. Lol. Nothing to display. Want know everything? Visit my another blog. Lol. My English Fail. -.-
Bukan segalanya disini.
Kat blog nie hanya ada ayat ayat yang positif sahaja.
Ini hanya blog sandaran sahaja. :-)


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